Leave

No, don't leave! I wish I could say that to you. I wish I could tell you how upset I am that you're leaving. But I know that I can't. Because as much as I hate to admit it, you should go. I know that it'll be better for you to leave, but at the same time, that means I'll have to give you up.

Not as though I had any claim on you to begin with. You belong to God. Who am I to demand your attention? I know that I should be grateful for the time that God has shared you with me, but the selfish part of me wants to hang on tight.

I don't want to let go. God has given me a blessing and I don't want to give it up. I'm so selfish. I'm so dependant on people. I need to be needed. I want security in people. But I also need to love. And when I find something that I love, I don't want to give it up again.

I love you too much to give you up. But at the same time, real love doesn't satisfy it's own desires. Agape love will do what is best for others. I know that it is best for you to go. I love you too much to let you go, but I love you too much to let you stay.

So as much as I hate to say it: Leave.