Broken Promises

I don't understand. I am so frustrated. What is going on? Why can't this go on? It's all ready. Everything is ready.

I've worked so hard to get everything organized and ready for this project. I spent so much thought working every detail out and creating schedules to fit everyone else's schedules. I spent so much time contacting people and trying to get actors and extras. I've borrowed a camera and a tripod. I've gotten the props, printed out the scripts, set everything up. I've worked SO HARD! Is this all for nothing? Is this all to go to waste?

Where is the commitment? I thought I had commitments from people, but I guess I was wrong. Yes, I am annoyed at her. Yes, I am annoyed at him.

You've said so many times about how you are so excited to make this film. You've said that you would be available all day and that you would be committed to this film. Where is that commitment? It's all words. All empty words. Now you can't film all day because you're acting in someone else's movie. Well that's ok, I'll work around your schedule. But why are you so committed to that project at the expense of your commitment to this project? Why are you breaking these commitments that you made to me? Does this project mean nothing to you? This is a group project. THIS IS NOT MY PROJECT! We decided to do this together. We're working together as a group. WHY AM I DOING ALL THE WORK? I don't mind doing all the work, but I expect that you would at least translate your excitement for this project into some commitment for what you said that you would do. You are full of excitement but so unreliable. I can't count on you.

I am so upset right now that I am tempted to say that I hate the circumstances. But I CAN'T say that because God is in control. To say that I hate what is happening is to say that I hate what God is doing. And I can't say that. God knows what He is doing even when I don't know.

And I know that God works out all things for good for those who love Him and who are called according to His purposes.

God never breaks His promises.