Avoiding you

I'm avoiding you. Sorry.

I'm making a conscious decision to avoid you, I guess because I don't want talk to you. I don't want to have to talk to you because I don't have anything to say to you.

You may not even know that I'm avoiding you. That's ok. I don't care anymore. You can be stuck in your own selfish world for all I care. I'm not going to make the effort to go seek you out and talk to you. I'm not going to spend the effort on you anymore. I bet you wont even know because you're so stuck in your own world. You probably don't even care enough to initiate a conversation with me, and you won't even notice that I'm not around to listen to you.

I know I'm sounding really harsh, but the only reason why I can say exactly how I feel is because I know that you will never read this.

I'm avoiding you because I don't want to see you. I don't want to see you because I am hurt. I've been betrayed, and I am hurt.

But, its entirely my own fault. You didn't betray me. You didn't fail me. But you did betray who I thought you were. You did fail who I thought you were. It was my own fault for thinking so highly of you. It was my own fault for putting you up on a pedistal. But you are not who I made you to be. You are a sinful, selfish, human being like the rest of us. I set myself up to be hurt. And now I have been hurt.

I'm not mad at you. I've forgiven anything that you've done.

I just don't feel like talking to you. Beacuse it hurts when I see you. And I just have nothing to say to you anymore.

Maybe as time heals my wounds, I'll be able to talk to you again. Maybe our friendship will be stronger because of this. But right now, I'm just too hurt to talk to you. So I'm avoiding you. The end.