Professor

I don't know what to do. I can't talk to my professor anymore.

Everytime I approach her and talk to her, I leave extremely frustrated and in tears. Everytime I get an assignment back, I don't understand why I got the grade that I did. It's not that I want to get a perfect score. Its just that I thought I did the assignment exactly as she stipulated, so when she takes off points, I would like to know what I did wrong and where I lost points. I'm not trying to get a higher grade, I just don't understand what I did wrong becasue I thought that I followed her instructions to the letter. If she would just explain what I did that was not following the directions, then I could fix that next time.

But everytime I approach her for direction, help, or explaination, she gets really upset with me. Professors are supposed to be there to help and guide the students. She seems like she has no patience to explain her grading or help me do better in the course. She has a certain expectation in her mind, and I feel like she just expects you to know it. Somehow I'm just supposed to know exactly what she means, and if I mess up and do something different, then that its. It's my fault that I didn't know exactly what she meant, and its my fault for not doing exactly what she expected in her mind for me to do.

"I'm tired of arguing grades with you"

I'M NOT ARGUING GRADES! I just want to know what I did wrong and why you took off so that I can do better next time.

"You need to start taking responsibility for what you did. Don't say 'Well you said this...'"

I AM TAKING RESOPINSIBILITY FOR WHAT I DID. I FOLLOWED YOUR INSTRUCTIONS! I AM RESPOINSIBLE FOR FOLLOWING YOUR INSTRUCTIONS. You told me to do it a certain way, so I did it. But now you're saying that I didn't follow your instructions. WHAT DID I DO THAT DIDN'T FOLLOW YOUR INSTRUCTIONS?

I am frustrated beyond words. I can't talk to her anymore. Every single time I end up crying because I am so humiliated. I am so frustrated at this miscommunication and I am humiliated. You're supposed to help your student. Not humilate them.

Lonely Again

Dear God,

I'm lonely again.

I know why. Because I'm prone to wander. I know my heart is prone to wander away from you. And only You can fill that hole inside of me. Only You can make me whole.

I've been trying to make it through on my own strength again. Why do I always do this? I forget and try to do it all on my own. Of course, I can't. Epic Fail.

I need You. I need Your strength. I need Your love to fill my emptiness.

I do need friends and fellowship and support. And I am definately lacking in support.

But then again, You are still the most important. And even when I have everything else, if I neglect to spend time with You, then I have nothing.

Please teach me to love You more.

Because my heart is fickle and I am prone to wander.

Please

Please God,

I need a miracle. We need your mercy.

Love,
Me