Director

I am so stressed. I do NOT want to be a director again. This has been such a frustrating experience, and I'm so stressed.

Getting a camera, getting a tripod. Working with the writer of the script, editing the script. Finding actors, casting characters. Subdividing scenes, making a shooting order. Planning sets, creating a shooting schedule. Picking shooting days, picking times. Creating a call sheet, working around people's schedules. Creating a prop list, a costume list. Finding the props, emailing lots of people to ask for extras. Having people change up their availability, reworking the schedules. Trying to get this film made while pleasing everyone at the same time. Making decisions.

I'm so stressed I think I'm going to go crazy. I'm so stressed that I've been having heartburn all day. I hate being a director, assistant director, producer, casting director, prop manager, costume design, and cinematographer all at the same time. I do NOT want to do this ever again!

Argh. =/


Dear God,
I'm so stressed. But I don't need to be. I need to let go. I know that You are in control and that You will always work things out for the best.

"Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." Matthew 11:28-29

God, please take this yolk from me. I am too burdened. Please give me Your rest. I trust that you will work all things for the good of them who seek you, of them who are the called according to your purpose.

Love,
Me <3