Monday, March 30, 2009

Professor

I don't know what to do. I can't talk to my professor anymore.

Everytime I approach her and talk to her, I leave extremely frustrated and in tears. Everytime I get an assignment back, I don't understand why I got the grade that I did. It's not that I want to get a perfect score. Its just that I thought I did the assignment exactly as she stipulated, so when she takes off points, I would like to know what I did wrong and where I lost points. I'm not trying to get a higher grade, I just don't understand what I did wrong becasue I thought that I followed her instructions to the letter. If she would just explain what I did that was not following the directions, then I could fix that next time.

But everytime I approach her for direction, help, or explaination, she gets really upset with me. Professors are supposed to be there to help and guide the students. She seems like she has no patience to explain her grading or help me do better in the course. She has a certain expectation in her mind, and I feel like she just expects you to know it. Somehow I'm just supposed to know exactly what she means, and if I mess up and do something different, then that its. It's my fault that I didn't know exactly what she meant, and its my fault for not doing exactly what she expected in her mind for me to do.

"I'm tired of arguing grades with you"

I'M NOT ARGUING GRADES! I just want to know what I did wrong and why you took off so that I can do better next time.

"You need to start taking responsibility for what you did. Don't say 'Well you said this...'"

I AM TAKING RESOPINSIBILITY FOR WHAT I DID. I FOLLOWED YOUR INSTRUCTIONS! I AM RESPOINSIBLE FOR FOLLOWING YOUR INSTRUCTIONS. You told me to do it a certain way, so I did it. But now you're saying that I didn't follow your instructions. WHAT DID I DO THAT DIDN'T FOLLOW YOUR INSTRUCTIONS?

I am frustrated beyond words. I can't talk to her anymore. Every single time I end up crying because I am so humiliated. I am so frustrated at this miscommunication and I am humiliated. You're supposed to help your student. Not humilate them.