I auditioned for choir today. I was hoping that I would make the top choir. I love singing so much, and I loved singing with a professional choir that makes excellent music together. I miss being a part of a good choir, so I wanted to join the top choir this year. I thought I had a good shot of making it.
I didn't make the top choir.
Apparently they only have 2 spots for sopranos, and these will be filled by graduate or upper division students. I am very disappointed.
But I know God is in control. If He wanted me in that choir, He would have put me in, no matter what the obstacles. So I guess God has something better planned for me. I don't know what that would be, but I have to trust that God works out all things for good for those who love Him and who are called according to His purpose.
Praise God, for He is the Lord. I praise You and thank you for not allowing me to be in the top choir. I trust that You have the perfect plan for me. I know You have loving allowed this in my life.
God, please help me to believe in my heart.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Believe
Ever since I got home from LoveCorps, its been rush, rush, rush back into life. Work has been stressful because I need to finish all the videos for the website to be launched at the beginning of next month. I've been making a lot of progress, but I've spent a lot of my time and energy there as well.
I miss being with my Opitsaht team, but I feel like the transition coming home has been a lot easier this year than it was last year. Every time I remember my teammates, I lift them up in prayer. I have been praying so much since I returned home, and when I meet up with friends, our conversations are always so centered on Christ. I have been abiding in God much more than I have ever in my life. When I get in the car to drive somewhere, I talk to God. When I wake up, and when I sleep, I think about God's amazing love. It's been amazing to be in a constant conversation with God.
But it's different than I imagined. There aren't fuzzy feelings of warmth and excitement. No spectacular signs or a booming voice from the sky.
It's a peace. Calm assurance that God is in control. A steady belief. Quiet trust. And God doesn't answer me in the storm, but in the still and small silence where I simply trust Him and
Believe.
I miss being with my Opitsaht team, but I feel like the transition coming home has been a lot easier this year than it was last year. Every time I remember my teammates, I lift them up in prayer. I have been praying so much since I returned home, and when I meet up with friends, our conversations are always so centered on Christ. I have been abiding in God much more than I have ever in my life. When I get in the car to drive somewhere, I talk to God. When I wake up, and when I sleep, I think about God's amazing love. It's been amazing to be in a constant conversation with God.
But it's different than I imagined. There aren't fuzzy feelings of warmth and excitement. No spectacular signs or a booming voice from the sky.
It's a peace. Calm assurance that God is in control. A steady belief. Quiet trust. And God doesn't answer me in the storm, but in the still and small silence where I simply trust Him and
Believe.
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